Resolutions

How many years have you made the New Year's Resolution to lose weight?

I remember a New Year's Eve my sophomore year in high school spent writing out my resolution list, topped with "lose weight" and kissing the list at the stroke of midnight. And that was that.

Honestly, I've consciously been trying to lose weight since middle school - but never have I stuck with one plan the way I have with this one.

Finally, I figured out a way to lose weight that was about making a lifestyle change, rather than just a diet. Finally, I admitted to myself that things were too far gone and I needed to rein myself in and take control over things. I've never stuck to a plan as long as I've been practicing my 50n50 stuff. Sure, I got a little distracted over the holidays, but I maintained my weight. I didn't gain anything!

I consider this a success. If I stop "dieting" and don't gain weight, it means I am making the right decisions, you know?

I don't know if I can stress enough how hard it was to see myself described as "obese." It truly was a wake up call. It was the slap in the face I needed. The motivation came and I haven't looked back. I never succeeded on diet plans that starved and denied me. This isn't a diet - I had pizza for dinner just last night! But I know where to balance and I am truly grateful to have finally found this.

The next 40 pounds are going to be tough, I know that. But I am resolved.