No appetite

Yesterday was a bad day. Not food-wise, but emotion-wise. Luckily, it wasn't a day when I tried to eat my sorrows away. Instead, my appetite disappeared.

This only happens during the REALLY, REALLY bad times (feeling better now, it was a brief episode brought on my female woes).

I lost 20 pounds last time - and when I came out of that downward spiral I discovered bones I never knew I had! Since then, I have found happiness again and have thus gained the weight back. But I look at the photos from that time and despite the ever-present frown on my face, I love looking at my body!

Most of that 20 pounds was lost because I went days without eating. Also, I smoked. A lot. And last night, I broke down and bought a pack of cigarettes. I only smoked 3.5, but felt pretty crappy about it. Of course, smoking affects metabolism and probably assisted in my weight loss last time. I don't plan on picking up the habit again, but I will admit it's tempting.

I can only imagine how great it will be when I've lost 50 pounds!

Totals: 640 calories 90 carbs 22 fat grams 38 protein