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Basically, the day I made my Big Announcement was the day before a 20-page paper was due. And I lost my mind. Seriously. I ate about 2800 calories that day - 1000 in Twizzlers, 400 in cereal ... I think there was some candy corn ad popcorn in there plus the usual meals. All of the junk was consumed after 8 p.m., by the way. Hardly part of the healthy lifestyle I've been advocating and credit as the reason I've lost the weight.
The next day, Thursday, I focused on eating only natural foods and a little detox and consumed 950 calories (and went to bed stuffed!).
Um, then, I went to a friend's house Friday for studying and much-needed girl time. Dare I mention the oatmeal chocolate cookies and bottle of wine we consumed? At least lunch and dinner both consisted of steamed vegetables and a smidgen of steamed meat (shrimp at lunch, pork at dinner - healthy choices from Chinese restaurants and fodder for a future blog).
I've managed to rein myself in since Friday, but am still pretty angry with my behavior. After all of this, I should know better!
So, as I sit here entering today's foods in my Sparkpeople.com calorie counter, I'm going to remind myself - once again - of the importance of planning your foods ahead. Remember these entries? Study Time Means Strategy Time and Just in Time? Why wasn't I prepared for this? I knew the paper was due last week and I knew it would mean late nights that would invite the munchies. Late nights have always invited my munchies! And why did I give in - literally getting in my car and going to the store JUST FOR TWIZZLERS - and let myself revert back to such an old, horrible habit? It would have been better to get an ice cream cone! At least ice cream has calcium and protein.
Sigh.
I am usually such a good planner! My life is nothing but a bunch of little plans. I plan meals for each week, I plan calories and nutrient allocations for each day (it sounds hardcore, but truly only takes a few minutes each day), I plan study time, boyfriend time, and dog time. I plan my finances. I plan dream vacations and dream weddings. Trust me, planning isn't the problem!
I let down my guard. I told myself it would be ok "this time" because I could make up for it later. I bartered with myself and got the losing end of the deal. And that's why I was 50 pounds overweight! Because "this time" is never a one time thing.
You will have to give yourself a little lenience and plan how to sustain the weight while living a little. Do give yourself a break, because as I recall, lack of exercise and binge eating was more of the problem that little life splurges. You still get kudos and being hard on yourself is hard on maintaining weight.
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